checkmate. Ü

i'm really not feeling well. i had colds last thursday night and it got worst today. But that will not stop me from greeting our birthday boy today. :) *your birthday and jae's real birthday is just one day apart. yunjae fans must be happy for that fact. :p)

and the birthday boy is.... *drumroll*

leader yunho! happy birthday leader! ^^

everyone's loving your handsome poses on evisu now. but i'll go with this cute pose. :D

just recently, i was looking for a song to play on my guitar to kill the boredom. so ransacked my things looking for a song book. i was flipping the pages of it when i suddenly landed to this page.

i read somewhere that yunho was currently listening to the song "Just Once" by James Ingram. (the artist indicated on the page is our local singer. she did a remake of the song.) As much as i want to link you the source, i cant remember it anymore. It was i think already a month ago. but i know i read it at onetvxqforums so you can check it out there.

i know the song but i never really paid attention to the lyrics. so that was maybe the first time i actually read its lyrics. If leader is not just randomly listening to this song, then this might best speak what's playing on his mind now. Read the lyrics and you will know...

he is the leader. so it is just usual for him to do his best.

but it seems, that for what is happening now, he's blaming himself, for his best was not good enough. because the group are separated in two now, it's like, they're back from being strangers.

yunho gave his heart to the group, the management, he loves them more than anyone else. but it seems that this love was not enough. for the two parties can't seem to make up. and the seem-like-endless exchanges are not going anywhere.

the leader is asking just once, just another chance for them to understand everything. why can't the two just admit that they're no good without each other? do what's best and make it better? and find a way to stay together?

yunho is asking just once for them to figure out what have been kept done wrong. the good times should last . "what are we doing wrong? can't we find a way to finally make it right?" He wishes that the "magic" that happened 6 years ago will still last. but the leader hasn't lost his faith yet. He believes that they could get through it and break through it. He still, as every one else, been always keeping his faith.

the italicized part is just based on the song. i'm not someone close to yunho to speak his mind (though i really wish that i am) nor am i edward cullen to be able to read his mind. so this is just ME interpreting the song "relative" to the leader. :)

i don't know if it's just me. but if you've been watching this whole 'show' entitled "lawsuit case" ever since it began, you would definitely feel that the song is in relation with that. But who am i to know? i'm just a part of the audience.

To leader yunho:

we also wish for that magic to last.

we will always do our best to give our help.

let the cassies, bigeasts and international fans be your tinkerbells.

we'll use all our pixie dust for all of you to be able to fly again. :)

so, can i have this dance? :p

happy birthday leader!

keep grooving! ^^