So everyone was crazy over Junsu's Tarantallegra and just hours ago my twitter timeline was really moving so fast as I think the album already became available online. Not that I don't like it but I haven't listened to it even with all the hype; This was only true until a few minutes ago. I've watched the MV and as I'm writing this post, I'm currently listening to some songs from the album.
I never really watched their dance MVs even when they were five. The most I've watched I think was Mirotic. Other than that I've only watched their MVs/ PVs of the likes for 1-2 times per song. I prefer listening to them than watching them on videos. This is very relevant after I've watched and listened to Tarantallegra. I thought I can watch all through out the video but half-way thru I cracked up. The latter part of the video was awkward, funny, crazy and just all out hilarious to me; Same feel that I had when I've watched TVXQ duo's Keep Your Head Down. It's evidently different when I listened to both songs. I can listen to them repeatedly but I can't do the same with their MVs.
So I decided to listen to some songs and how I felt proud as I played track after track. Junsu is really one talented person. He can obviously sing, dance and he can write songs. I'd be a hypocrite If I'd say that the this-could-have-been-more-awesome-if-they-were-still-five thought never came to me. It strikes me every now and then but it doesn't mean that I don't appreciate their individuality.
Crazy as it seems, after I have listened to the songs it felt that I was like a mother who's giving out his son to the world.
A mother takes care of her child, cares for him until he'll have his own wings and fly. One does not compare her children with each other as everyone has unique characteristics and stands out on his own.
Kim Junsu was already flying high for some time now and he keeps on soaring. It was a bittersweet feeling as it felt like it was just yesterday when he was putting up his cute-angel-xiah pose to doing handstand with Yunho on their SBS Gayo Daejun performance. It felt that I've watched him grow to what he has become now and though in fear, I know one day, I have to let him go so the whole world will be able to see how he can shine with his own light. I have to separate him with my other children as it will make him grow into a mature person and acquire independence. But doing this doesn't mean that I will totally abandon him. I'm just right here, watching how far he can go, how high he can soar. If one day he gets wounded and fall, I'll fix his wings so that he could fly again. If I have my own wings, I would gladly give it to him so as to see him soar high again. Crazy aren't I? :)
I think that these feelings were always felt by mothers. Don't get me wrong. I'm only 22 and I haven't even been in a relationship. I just speak through experience; The love and care I've experienced from my mom and the freedom she gave me on my life choices and decisions.
So to all the moms in this fandom, the moms of the fans of those five and to the moms of those five, THANK YOU. I will always be grateful to all the moms of people I've encountered. You are all truly admirable in your own ways. Keep guiding us. Happy Mothers Day! :)
