It was thanks to plurk that I've known when was the first time I started liking DBSK or their music. It was August 20, 2009 when i first watched mirotic MV and on the 21st, I updated a plurk saying that DBSK's mirotic is addicting. This is also the first time that i've liked a kpop band. I do listen to korean music but that's just from the OST of kdramas and kvariety shows that i've watched. They are the first, and probably, the last. :)
So what has happened to this fangirl after 2 years? Let me go down the memory lane. :)
- 2009 was the emo-est time of my Fan girl life. I was 4th yr college then and on the road to graduation, instead of joining school orgs and lurking at school and voting for the next set of student council officers, I joined trending events on twitter, I voted like crazy on dbsk-related polls, I lurked at forums and sites for like 10 times a day, I spam my notes with always keep the faith and to top it all, I started a blog. My first year was the emo-est as it was the time when the lawsuit was born and the time when DBSK as a quintet band was shaking. You just don't know how I crazily checked news regarding the development of the lawsuit. But as the year ended it was getting worse. Cancelled concert, fanmeets until I heard no news at all. This may sound exaggerated but it was really maddening. All the more when school is getting b*tchy as well.
- 2010 was the peak of my fangirl life. With 3 months before graduation, I don't know how I was able to give an E for effort on fangirling back then. Aside from the obligatory buying a DBSK album releases and the usual stalking of sites and forums for news, it was this year when I've most updated this blog. I even made birthday posts for each member! Looking back I was really a dedicated fan back then. I remembered that on Changmin's birthday, we were preparing our thesis and finals then I asked my classmates to write a happy birthday changmin on a paper. If that's not crazy then tell me what it is. I was religiously updating this blog even at the busiest time of my college life-- requirements here, papers there but I managed to update this back then. Dedicated, weren't I?
- I may have graduated in college but i've still not graduated from the fan girl academy. While my classmates were busy looking for job, I was enjoying my vacation while fangirling. But it was also the saddest time of fangirling as it marked the major hiatus of DBSK as 5. It was holy week when my t-list was sobbing in their tweets as AVEX formally announced that they'd put an indefinite halt to Tohoshinki's group activities. AVEX, as most cassies thought, was the last resort for the quintet to stay as five but everything shattered. Though this might be the saddest moment, personally, It was a blessing. I was formally hired at a school May of 2010. This also marked the year when I started going to kpop events and gatherings. CassPH's 7G was the first event that I went to. And on the first salary that I received, I bought DBSK's first korean album, Tri-angle. It felt good as it was my own-earned money that I used in buying it. But as I've started working, things I've done as a fan girl slimmed.
- Mid-year of 2010 is struggle time. The lawsuit filers formed a group named JYJ and the other two were just focusing on not-so-music-related stuffs. This was also the time when fandom was beginning to breakdown. It was a good thing that I was getting busy for work as I don't have the time to check on current news-- but I still did, occasionally. I put queued posts on tumblr, I try to join trending topic but not as much as I have done before and still bought their albums, attended events but more than that, there's not much that i've done. It was the same in the beginning of 2011. This time, DBSK finally came back-- not as a quintet but as a duo.
- August 2011, what have I become as fan girl? Before in my twitter bio, it was written there that I'm a full time teacher, part time fan girl but just recently, i've changed it to full time teacher, occasional fan girl. I may not be at the same level when I was a new fan girl than to the fan girl who have turned 2 yrs old right now but it doesn't mean that I've less liked them. They will always be my first and last korean-band-love. It's just that, i have learned to accept the changes and the reality that there's the existence of a group JYJ who have once became a member of DBSK and that DBSK right now is a duo. I've accepted it, but it doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt. It stings a bit, but I know i've moved on. There are times when I look back at the past and wishes to stay there forever but i know that won't help me.
So how was the 2-year old fan girl? She has turned into a fangirl who looks back in the past but adjusts to the present and hopes for a better future. :)
